Unfailing Grace

God's grace is so good!
I recently have sorta been knocked on the head with it though. Sometimes, I go through times where I wonder if God really does forgive me for my sins, whether I'm even worth anything to Him. I feel as though He is there for anyone else, except me. Leading me to feel alone, and unworthy(Though we are unworthy of His love. Glory to Him for giving it anyway!). And though the obvious truth is that He is there for me, I almost unknowingly become blind to it. I bring God down to a level as to where I imagine He is a God that breaks His promises of total forgiveness. And when I do that, I struggle, and I feel distant from Him.
This then leads to confusion, and a more increased feeling of aloneness. I become numb to the obvious fact that He is there, whether I want Him or not. I push Him away even though it's the last thing I want to do.
But thanks to his constant reminding, and patience with me, He reveals to me His love, and how much He gives me in spite of my sin. His patience is unrivaled! He sees me continue to fall, lie, and just plain be so unworthy, and yet He forgives, and forgets, and just reminds me of how much He loves me. And man, that goes a long way. I know I'm bound to fall again in the future, but these experiences help to remind me, and get me back on track.
This leaded me to realize something. I'm blown away by the fact of how often we live our lives oblivious to the grace that is placed on us. What honestly is stopping God from throwing us all into Hell and starting over? What are we really worth? What have we done to earn His favor? The answer is nothing. We sin so much, and in such terrible ways. Yet, by His grace, and love for us, we live on. He has made us, and although we go against Him by our very nature, He blesses us, and gives us so much more than we deserve. It really is an incredible thing. Humbling to say the least. How can we boast of anything? We don't deserve a thing, let alone life itself.
However he loves us, and He fights for us. He is there when we need Him, and He is there when we don't think we need Him. It's unfailing grace, and unfailing love, and He has given it to us freely. With open arms He accepts us as we are, washing us and making us new again.
For that, I follow Him with a humble heart, understanding that there isn't anything I can do that will turn His love. Knowing that He has the blueprints for my entire life in the palm of His hand, and He remains the great Author of our lives forever. Amen.