Surrender

Wow, I had a wake-up call this morning. This pit I've been in for the past three weeks has seemed to have persisted and not let up. This has led to me being more and more confused, doubtful, and just not a happy dude. It had led me to really shake in doubt and become scared. I was questioning myself, and my salvation, and whether or not I was even a part of God's plan anymore. Doubts and confusion were all over me and it was utterly terrible.
I had had glimpses of sorta waking up and snapping out of it, and that was at one point when I wrote the previous post, but I quickly got down again and felt empty once more. I was still not enjoying anything and I had slowed in my prayers and felt like they were going nowhere.
But God is faithful, and He puts us through trials to teach us and strengthen us. Praise God for that! It occurred to me, while in this pit, that I had barely been reading my Bible. This should have been a bit of an obvious problem to me, but through my walk, I had sorta used the Bible as a reference, or like a guide book. Never actually reading it through that much. And I had done ok, spiritually my walk seemed fine for a while. But I believe that this shake over I've gone through was a way of God sorta saying, "Okay Dave, time to actually start reading my Word, and start to learn now. So, get to it!" And it's been a wonderful solution to my doubts. Ever since I have, I've felt my spirit sorta begin to breath again, like life had returned. It's kinda weird but it's an awesome feeling. I needed to surrender over what I wanted to do, and how I was feeling, and just listen to, and look at what God has done for me.
Surrendering is so awesome. God is sovereign, and He rules over everything we go through. Even though we can sometimes feel dead and far away from Him, He is so never far from us. He brings us through things to build us up, and He never ever breaks us down. He knows what we need, and He cares for us with so much love.
He can, and will test our faith. And in the end, it's him that gets us through the rough times in life. Praise Him! :D

Rescue is Coming

Man, nothing better than making through life's tunnels. I recently went through about a two to three week stretch of what felt like spiritual loneliness. It was utterly terrible. I couldn't find joy in anything I did. The light was dimmed in my life, and I felt that I was beyond eternal salvation. Most of the time, at church and when praying, it felt like I was just going through the motions and my prayers hit deaf ears. I felt numb and lost. It was like the spiritual part of me was abandoned.
Well, I wanna encourage anyone who ever goes through times like that, when you're full of doubt, depression, and despair, to just hang on. Hold on to the hope that He will rescue you. Hope is the greatest thing we have, and through it we can spring a new in Him. I found that the simple belief and hope that He reigns above me and it all, and has plans for me whether I accept them or not was strong enough to knock me out of my lameness. It's all about losing yourself and letting God run the show. Giving oneself up is one of the greatest things anyone can ever do.
Ya can't run from Him, cause that gets ya nowhere. I just want to encourage anyone that if you feel trapped, or doubtful, or lost, to be strong and full of joy, because either way, you got the only perfect thing that has ever existed controlling and delivering your life. Rescue is on it's way. Praise Him, glory in the highest! :)