Dusting off the keyboard

I'm sitting here with my glass of milk, listening to The Almost, and writing about the fact the I plan on re-starting my blog back up again. It's been a while, and I miss having an outlet to write out my spiritual struggles/praises, and my day to day stuff. It was kinda fun, and whether anyone read it or not, it was nice to write it down. It has been a blessing to be able to write things down and then go back and see what I was dealing with or excited about and what caught my fancy at that particular time.

So, I think I shall resume at some point this week. Thank you, and goodnight!

Heartbeat

God is so awesome! We are blessed everyday from Him, even on our worst days, and we can sometimes not even realize it.
I was struggling through, having a hard time praying one night recently, and I was asking God to basically tell me, or show me, that He really really does love me, even amongst my struggles and wrestling I gave Him. I was feeling confused about a lot of things that night and just needed some clarity. He showed me all I needed to know. I realized that I can feel His love for me anytime I want it, anytime I doubt myself, or feel like crap. Whenever I feel lonely, or unworthy, or I don't know what's going on, He still loves me.
I realized that we all have a steady reminder. A perfect reminder in fact. The Bible says that God sustains us, and that He keeps us going for as long as He wants. We are in His hands, all in perfect synchronization to His perfect plan of course. God holds us together, and fills us when we are hungry, and answers the door when we knock.
What hit me when I was praying, was that my own heartbeat was a testifying proclamation of God's love. It shows that He is keeping us going, keeping the blood flowing in us, even when we are not at our best. He declares that we are worth it to Him, that He wants us to keep up, stay strong, and most importantly, that He still loves us over all that we do against Him. We can deny him so many times, but He will never do that to us. He is unchanging and everlasting.
All you have to do, when confusion and fear takes hold in your mind, and when you feel like you can't go on, is to just put your hand on your chest, and feel His love keeping you going, beating away at His command, because you are worth it to Him, the God of everything. :)

Only You, Lord

I recently stumbled a bit, and shifted my focus from God on to myself. It stinks. Thankfully it wasn't long lived. I got myself re-focused and am praising God for His wonderful love. :) This song is a great prayer, and I just wanted to share it cause it's so awesome! It's called "Only You"

Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it up to You who’s throned

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
You're my delights, be my everything

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord

And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now

You should see the view
When it’s only You

Surrender

Wow, I had a wake-up call this morning. This pit I've been in for the past three weeks has seemed to have persisted and not let up. This has led to me being more and more confused, doubtful, and just not a happy dude. It had led me to really shake in doubt and become scared. I was questioning myself, and my salvation, and whether or not I was even a part of God's plan anymore. Doubts and confusion were all over me and it was utterly terrible.
I had had glimpses of sorta waking up and snapping out of it, and that was at one point when I wrote the previous post, but I quickly got down again and felt empty once more. I was still not enjoying anything and I had slowed in my prayers and felt like they were going nowhere.
But God is faithful, and He puts us through trials to teach us and strengthen us. Praise God for that! It occurred to me, while in this pit, that I had barely been reading my Bible. This should have been a bit of an obvious problem to me, but through my walk, I had sorta used the Bible as a reference, or like a guide book. Never actually reading it through that much. And I had done ok, spiritually my walk seemed fine for a while. But I believe that this shake over I've gone through was a way of God sorta saying, "Okay Dave, time to actually start reading my Word, and start to learn now. So, get to it!" And it's been a wonderful solution to my doubts. Ever since I have, I've felt my spirit sorta begin to breath again, like life had returned. It's kinda weird but it's an awesome feeling. I needed to surrender over what I wanted to do, and how I was feeling, and just listen to, and look at what God has done for me.
Surrendering is so awesome. God is sovereign, and He rules over everything we go through. Even though we can sometimes feel dead and far away from Him, He is so never far from us. He brings us through things to build us up, and He never ever breaks us down. He knows what we need, and He cares for us with so much love.
He can, and will test our faith. And in the end, it's him that gets us through the rough times in life. Praise Him! :D

Rescue is Coming

Man, nothing better than making through life's tunnels. I recently went through about a two to three week stretch of what felt like spiritual loneliness. It was utterly terrible. I couldn't find joy in anything I did. The light was dimmed in my life, and I felt that I was beyond eternal salvation. Most of the time, at church and when praying, it felt like I was just going through the motions and my prayers hit deaf ears. I felt numb and lost. It was like the spiritual part of me was abandoned.
Well, I wanna encourage anyone who ever goes through times like that, when you're full of doubt, depression, and despair, to just hang on. Hold on to the hope that He will rescue you. Hope is the greatest thing we have, and through it we can spring a new in Him. I found that the simple belief and hope that He reigns above me and it all, and has plans for me whether I accept them or not was strong enough to knock me out of my lameness. It's all about losing yourself and letting God run the show. Giving oneself up is one of the greatest things anyone can ever do.
Ya can't run from Him, cause that gets ya nowhere. I just want to encourage anyone that if you feel trapped, or doubtful, or lost, to be strong and full of joy, because either way, you got the only perfect thing that has ever existed controlling and delivering your life. Rescue is on it's way. Praise Him, glory in the highest! :)